today isnt as cheerful as it seems.
i thought i could put off the thought but i just cant
i cant focus on delivering what i want to say to the jr. peer leaders.
ah hack with it.

yes yes, i dreamt about you.
yes you, you whom i had a crush on for two 214days.
yes its TWO-HUNDRED-AND-FOURTEEN days.
we hugged each other in my dreams, and you lied down on the bed while i did my work.
it just feels like eternity when i had you around.
but now, i just realised it was just a dream.

its just a dream, like everything else.
it just has to end, because its a good thing.
all good things must come to an end, must it?
why cant i dream of you every night. and every night is an eternity.
why cant i?
i just. need you.
to talk to me, not me talking to you and you give one word replies.
not smsing you and you dont reply.
not that.
i dont like it.
cant you just talk to me? ):

i just found out something.
although we did not meet each other, i seem to be attracted to you.
very attracted.
cuz we used to talk aquite alot last time.
and then i started liking you.
and now the like turned into love.
yes love, you got it? ):
i am very attracted to you and just cant put you off my mind.
its like.
a trap. i cant get out of it.
argh. and i cant get attracted to other people.
trying to forget you is like effing difficult.

how i wish i am better off dead.
then i wont suffer from the claws of love.
i was wondering, was i not good enough for you or you just dont like me?
or you have no interest in me, or you like somebody else?
well you cant keep on avoiding me, and cant we just be friends?
you are messing me up.
you are not hurting me, but i am. depressed.
nevermind, you wont understand me.. ):




everything is just a dream.
just like how i got rich, just like how i managed to get full marks for all the test.
and i woke up and i realised it was a dream.
like a primary school compo huh? (: